干外婆 :(

外婆~
你在天堂..要好好的过 :)
我会很想你的..

虽然..都是进几年才当了你的干孙女..
但当我还是小孩子的时候..
每一次一看到你..你就会对我说..你高了,你美了
那时我真的会很开心的..真的..

到这几年..放假时,都回去你的家游泳..
想念那时的日子..

我知道..我们都很少沟通..很少说话..
但我真的还是把你当作自己的亲外婆..


我...真的对你有很多说不出的话..
外婆..你怎么不说一声就这样走了呢?
我根本就不知道上次去医院看你是最后一次了..
在医院看你时..你说你很痛..很喘..
你病得很严重了..我却只能在一边看你..

直到..星期日的时候..亲外婆打给我说..你去世了..
我傻了..那种痛..是真的说不出来.. T>T

外婆..很抱歉..
在你去世的第一天和第二天没有当到做干孙女的本分..
没有跟干爹他们一起在那边日夜守着你..
而只是在第一天的晚上去拜了..

当我看到你睡在棺材里时..我真的很心痛..
我看见的外婆..你瘦了很多很多..
你跟以前不一样了..变得不像我以前的外婆了..
把自己的眼泪忍在眼里..不让它留下..

但今天..送你出殡时..我忍不到..我哭了..
到火化场的时候..看着你的棺材..
慢慢地往下走了..我真的很想哭..
说我不舍得你..但..一切..都说不出口..


外婆~对不起..
我爱你..
你一定要好好地过!

I love this very much ;)

I love this song very very much .
Without any reason xD

Damaged - Shayne Ward

Remember those photograps we took on the boat in Spain
I took them down and ripped them up and threw them all away
remember on the back of one you wrote we would meant to be
that doesn't really matter now cause u don't mean a thing to me
baby you shoulda told me tryna to find the start
I thought I was your only till you put me on the shelf and found somebody else

( CHORUS )

I never thought that you would ever do that everything we had is gone
said you loved me said never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
cause I'm damaged , I'm damaged , don't know what to do , baby
I'm damaged so , so damaged because of you
get rid of those clothes you left like you got rid of our dreams
don't wanna be reminded of all of the memories
I use to have the ticket stamp saved from our very first date
but that don't really matter now cause you threw our love away
baby you shoulda told me cause now I'm torn apart
thought that I was your only till you put me on the shelf and found somebody else


i never thought that you would ever do that everything we had is gone
you said you loved me said never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
cause I'm damaged , I'm damaged , don't know what to do
baby I'm damaged so , so damaged because of you
It's almost like you were never here , I almost feel like I don't care
Girl , I've almost got rid of all the pain
the only thing I have left to say , girl is how cud you leave me so damaged
DAMAGED

Girl I never thought , never thought that'd you'd do everything is gone
you said you love me , said you never leave me , maybe I just heard you wrong
I never thought that you would ever do that everything we had gone
said you love me , said you never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
cause I'm damaged , I'm damaged , don't know what to do , baby
I'm damaged so , so damaged because of you
I never thought that you would ever di that everythingwe had is gone
you said you love me , said you never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong
cause I'm damaged . I'm damaged , don't know what to do , baby
I'm damaged so , so damaged because of you




Arhh ! finally I've finish it !
I type it myself >.<
Silly me . cause dunno why .
cant copy , paste de ?

Hope you all will like it too :DD

:(

I'm moody today .
Why ? about something personal :(

I feel tat I change alot .
But ... wat can I do ?

I feel tired n tired n tired about this ,
really cant take it anymore .

I'm stupid .. I know !
I think everything is over , but .. not !
What should I do ?
I'm so confused ! ;(

Anyone can help me ?
I need someone now !
When I need someone ..
I feel tat no ppl knows me .
Everyone r gone ;(

Please dun treat me like this ..
I also need HELP sometimes !

Did I do something wrong ?
Did I choose a wrong direction ?

I force myself to think positive .
But I cant .
What I'm Doing now ?!

I really confused !
so dissapointed to myself !

I'll fall down .. But I'll stand up too !

Just give me some time

I know I can do it

Miyi . Just do it

Just face the problem

:)

新生活 :(

开学了..就等于新生活了..
真的是完全改变了一个生活方式..
才几天罢了..我已经很累了..很腻了..

每天早上..5:45那样起身..准备..
校车又很挤..虽然有了冷气 xD
去到学校..想上课都不能 >.<
不是老师没有来..就是老师一直在前面念..

尤其是那个废材老师 ( En . Faizal )
相信给他教过的人都知道他的花样吧?
我已经非常清楚了..所以每天都模仿他..
哈哈..上他的课..也很辛苦下..
一直要忍着..不能笑..

因为得到一次教训了..
去年..上他的课时..我跟柔就一直在笑..
为什么我们笑呢?
原因就是...
柔那一张纸..卷起来..弄成一个香烟..
然后我就笑..我也不知道我为什么笑>.<
我笑..就弄到柔也笑了.. xDD

就这样..我们就被老师叫去训导室骂2节..
哈哈..想回以前..真的很开心..
有你们真好! :D

现在的我呢..就是想回到过去 :(
过着在班有人跟我说活..有人跟我玩..
有说有笑的日子..
不像现在的我..过着那...不知道怎么形容的生活..

在班..就只是抄东西..做功课..听老师念..
根本就没有一个人可以跟我说话..聊天..
啊!!我这个人就是最讨厌这样的生活的..
每天就是躺着..看着外面的人..走来走去的..

放学...很多人一放学就可以上车了..
我呢? 等到2点..车才来..
有人陪还没关系..
问题就是我一个人..咳 :(
一个人坐在亭子..看着人..一个一个走..
车也慢慢的少..才到我上车..
2点半那样才回到家..
星期1和4放学后就直接去补习了..
因为回到家..补习已经开始了 :(
啊!!!
我真的开始厌倦了! :'(

这种讨厌的生活到底什么时候才结束呢?
是因为刚开学的问题吗?
救救我啊!! :(((

想回到过去